im too excited for camp tml that i cant sleep so i was thinking of some stuff and here is my conclusion
its been a year since i started this question to myself, if i should go all out on skating or skating on my final year in poly. and I've come up with my list on what i want most.
1. Video editing & acting. ( Its the reason why i came into TP in the first place. Studies comes first as always)
2. Skating ( yes it took me a whole year to get all my shit thought cleared out and THIS is what i want to be in the team)
3. Dancing ( from my facebook many would have thought i threw away skating for dance that is not the case.)
4. other skills that i have just done at random time
with my post im going to explain why and more in depth
Video Editing, was the reason why it saved me from my poor O level results and got me into School of Design. I wanted to be an actor form young, not because of fame. Simply put that I find the passion to bring a world that is within the mind into something other people is able to see. The more I act when i was younger, the more i took the camera to film. It soon developed the interest to work the camera and edit the clips. To be a good actor, i felt that i got to first understand how it is like being a crew, so it would be easier to work in the future. and so i began to film more and more and just edit. Even for the fun of it, its just too addictive.
After the release of results i put the course im in as my first choice, which got rejected. I got sent to NYP and i appealed getting into RP. before TP gave me a chance to show what i have and i got through and here I am. This tough journey made me want to do my best when im in the school, but the journey was not smooth sailing. Being a designer emotions play an extremely big role in your work, and i am a emotionally fragile person. which hindered me a lot. and thus i did many other activities to get my mind off the problems at hand.
Skating...I still remembered when i begged my parents for a pair of skates after i graduated from secondary school. Which they felt back then was that its just an expensive toy i would get tired of and throw it aside after playing it once or twice. And so they refused to help me buy, and as a kid, it is impossible to save up for something so costly. and being that immature brat, i ran away from home. until my father felt that i was serious and bought me my first pair of FR2. After i entered poly, I had an offer to directly admit into the dance team without audition, which i didnt go for after my accident during dance which made me stop. I felt shuffling isnt what they were lokoing for as well and my hands arent working back then. having ym own pair of freestyle skates, and seeing the skating demo i knew then it was what i wanted! however during the first few training, without my strong basics along with my bad slides (i was a slider when i started freestyle) i injured my already badly injured hand. and thus i sat down to think of my decision. Since i wanted to dance and something less risky i decided to go for slalom. this was the main activity which distracted my emotional being by training harder and harder each time.
if i want to make it, i got to go all the way. and so the team was what i aimed for. i trained even harder almost everyday until one day i tore my leg muscle right before my competition. that feeling was devastating. the only bright side was when the team manager came and ask me if i wanted to be part of the team. I rejected it. for a few reasons. i felt that the muscle tear is a goner
9its better and pretty much fully recovered now after that short quitting). I questioned myself if im able to dedicate my time into the team. and lastly negative pressure from my poly club, i was afraid my club which is my family would ostracize me when im in the team.
this is a decision which i now regret. especially during the period when i wanted to quit skating after the break up. (post is way way old go look for it if u want to know more http://leoakaninrai.blogspot.com/2011/10/yes-it-hurts.html) my BIGGEST regret was to give up on the team and my juniors who kept asking me not to go. it was a really emotional period for me.
now to dancing, want to know why i dance so much? because its the only way i can express without anything, without putting on my skates. (like what bboy Felix from Radikal Forze said for his interview) for now it can only be an interest, a normal guy like me cant do too much. i only have 24 hours a day. maybe i will only go all out on this after i graduate from poly, after my skating career cant go any further. this expression made me make a lot of friends, be it good or bad. this expression also helped me show what i hide inside. all the pain, happiness, energy and many more hidden. hope in future i can make it more into this. one day the jack of all trades, will be a king. king of all trades.
and others....life is too short, yet there are so much things for us to explore. thats why i learn so much things. piano, magic, skate, dance, martial arts and list goes on. like i said above, i cant master all at a go. so one at a time i will get the checklist down. with all this mini talents i have here and there, it will definitely help in my Acting career, my future job. filming me will be so much fun.
a person once said to me, my talent is to have talents. I guess this is one skill i can master. to master all talents once at a time. my life journey with this adventure continues.
its time to sleep now, if u finished reading this long post, i congratulate you. do let my know in the tag box or FB chatbox me if my English have improve a little. Ive been working a lot on my language skills. Thank you for reading this long post.
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