Emotional pain

Starts of just thinking yay a new friend, in a second things get too sweet and you became my girlfriend. I had a month doing my best of what i could even when i was totally clueless, i gave everything. I thought the trip would draw us closer, but i made us even further apart. And in a blink of an eye you choose to leave and seek happiness on your own.

I feel helpless, this pain was too much to bear. Pain gets too much i force myself away from you, I removed you from FB so i wont go and look at your post. Not working I still go to your profile, well the info at least. I loved you but now its just a memory. You are doing fine on your own without me. Me? I'm not without you. Its hell all over again for me these emotions, thoughts. Its all driving me insane.

I lose focus, I cant talk to anyone happily without bringing you up. I start over thinking, flashbacks hit. I get down again and again over those thoughts. Focus get driven away and I find myself planning a routine for competition, one that is horrible. I cant focus. I cant study, I flunk my subjects. I pulled as much strength to complete my work, all in my phone. It got stolen by some heartless person. What hurts more was that that phone was the only things i smile to as i read our old messages. Long gone. So there goes my career, studies and future.

I miss you. You wont i know. Be and be happy on your own now. But for me, the pain is just, one i can no longer handle. It overpowered me.