in class now chilling(literally coz its damn cold) and waiting for my parents to come and fetch me so i can eat dinner and chiong home to do work.
what is planking or owling? heh these people just copy! i am the one who will go everywhere and footgun (because i love skating so much) everyday and post it up. it is here > http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150246974207701.329807.658322700 do check everyday. hahas.
brrr its freezing. i just ended my meeting and have shitload to do so parents better come quick if they want me to join them for dinner sia! got flyer design to settle and also re-edit my cine65 video.
ok change of plans...mum just pissed me of by miscommunication and hang up right away. wtf? so im going home myself and skip dinner do do work. yay!!!
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
kinda stressful as a Design student man....
whoever who said Design everyday draw only la no stress one deserve to die man.... Im stressed over 2 major assignments! Shall type mre when have time la.
anyway who can help me download or get PTC ProDesktop?
anyway who can help me download or get PTC ProDesktop?
Monday, July 11, 2011
conclusion 6 years later
ive finally decided to let go, since its impossible to give up. i once said i would wait till after o levels, and here i am 2 years after that date. these words here and everything said may have never meant anything to you since i was just a nobody you.
i hate the fact everytime i see you i have to hold back what i want to say, im unfit to say such words since feelings only flows out but never in return and the fact every move i made to try and move on is just pulling me further away from you. that's one of the biggest mistake ive made and will never forgive myself for.
I could recall the conversation which gripped me speechless when you said "if you are dead serious, why did you get into other relationships". I knew ive made the hugest mistake. I shouldn't have listened to those telling me to try and move on, its either you move on or dont try since it make things worse. I really wonder if it was even possible if I actually did not get into any other relationships, or just another of your excuse.
It may not be possible for us to speak to one another at all in future as these words will just choke me and the pain pierce my heart again and again, the fact is i am really tired and i knew i tried everything i could.
words, tears, time everything are just pointless wastage. Friendship? thats not something i want as a souvenir, not when i just stand in front of you fighting a war within my mind every time while looking at you acting as tho nothing is wrong. what was left could have been right.
dosent matter what message i received from you every time as i know that at that very fraction of time i was in your mind and that have already meant a lot, but looks like i do not stay in your mind all the time unless when my help is needed. how i wish you need my help FOREVER.
I try to just ignore my feelings everytime i see you with him, and just cast myself aside like how I should have done from the very start of knowing you. this is good bye.
i hate the fact everytime i see you i have to hold back what i want to say, im unfit to say such words since feelings only flows out but never in return and the fact every move i made to try and move on is just pulling me further away from you. that's one of the biggest mistake ive made and will never forgive myself for.
I could recall the conversation which gripped me speechless when you said "if you are dead serious, why did you get into other relationships". I knew ive made the hugest mistake. I shouldn't have listened to those telling me to try and move on, its either you move on or dont try since it make things worse. I really wonder if it was even possible if I actually did not get into any other relationships, or just another of your excuse.
It may not be possible for us to speak to one another at all in future as these words will just choke me and the pain pierce my heart again and again, the fact is i am really tired and i knew i tried everything i could.
words, tears, time everything are just pointless wastage. Friendship? thats not something i want as a souvenir, not when i just stand in front of you fighting a war within my mind every time while looking at you acting as tho nothing is wrong. what was left could have been right.
dosent matter what message i received from you every time as i know that at that very fraction of time i was in your mind and that have already meant a lot, but looks like i do not stay in your mind all the time unless when my help is needed. how i wish you need my help FOREVER.
I try to just ignore my feelings everytime i see you with him, and just cast myself aside like how I should have done from the very start of knowing you. this is good bye.
Friday, July 8, 2011
something is wrong with me
school is just boring~ i wake up at 12 go to school class end at 3 rush lunch and go for 3-6 class. all the time i feel like sleeping.
Something tho which i realized is that i feel really different. i seem not to have this explosive flare like how i usually have and somehow i am feeling that missing feeling there again just worse then before. Relationships, hais...sometimes i really told myself just focus on skates and studies for now since its impossible between me and her but i just stubbornly stay there. I need to move on.
Tonight i shall miss dragon ball tho, tml having a presentation and im rushing it(not really coz im playing tetris battle as well). Hopefully i got something nice to post up soon. tata~
Something tho which i realized is that i feel really different. i seem not to have this explosive flare like how i usually have and somehow i am feeling that missing feeling there again just worse then before. Relationships, hais...sometimes i really told myself just focus on skates and studies for now since its impossible between me and her but i just stubbornly stay there. I need to move on.
Tonight i shall miss dragon ball tho, tml having a presentation and im rushing it(not really coz im playing tetris battle as well). Hopefully i got something nice to post up soon. tata~
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