Whole day at ECP.

today was great. okay....i kept Valerie waiting so i know she is mad for waiting for so long. I bought a crispy chicken from Eunos mrt that side and gotta say arh...it sucks! So me and val took 13 down to ECP. Then before going to underpass i felt bit of thing touching me, water? Told Valerie about it then came out from underpass and took about 20 steps then it started to drizzle then RAIN. FML! seriously, me and val was spamming FUCK?!?

At macs i ate a double cheese burger then shortly after Val's friend Selina came over. But about 10 mins or so the sun started shining and we were happy coz finally getting the floor to dry. We even made it dry fast. ok this is epic....i took the dead leaves of the palm tree nearby and started to sweet the water and also make it spread the water about so can dry faster. Tried to borrow a mop from inline culture but they say mop spoiling _|_-.-_|_ dowan lend then say la. never help own skater family one sia. But got this nice cleaner there who gave us a broom(nice of him to) so we ended up Seline was sweeping the water with a broom while me and val we using the leaves. Then also sweep some leaves away. I say this broom which is made for sweeping leaves and took it before val took it away and then the head came off...EPIC SHIT! then i took the stick and stick it to the ground near the rink. lets see how long it will stay there.

I got to say im ashamed by my own level of skating after seeing Selina skate. Pretty girl with awesome slides man. I hands down kena own. Then we got tired and went to Hyper to look at freestyle skates coz Val wants to get a new pair. And slack there awhile with Andy in the shop. Before making our way to lagoon to makan.

On the way to lagoon we bump into Mediacorp people filming and the asked us to stop and play calefare.(Y) So we have to skate and look at i forget what his name the actor and laugh while skating past only. Must watch 'Ren Gui Pai Dang'(human-ghost partner. At the lagoon, shared Ba Kut Teh with Seline while Val had Iced Jelly. Wah the soup okok only but small and $5 sibeh ex.

By then our legs are not listening to us liao but manage to skate back to rink again before Selina left. Then went to BK with Val. Val had to go and then i met kimberly at the rink and continue training before going to KFC to look at her eat.(at toilet sitting on throne most of time la anyway)

After a little more practice me, Kim and Jeremy went to eat snow ice before taking a bus 13 to Bedok and went back home.

Made 2 new skating friends today one chio but damm zai skater name Selina and other is Jeremy who just started. Nvm he is fun loving and will learn fast since he works at only recently but will lean fast la, got all the zai skater there also. Full day at ecp skatin is tiring but (Y)(Y)

People I really truly miss right now.

No, im not hiding on the people i miss. You may be ok or totally displike me, but i just wish i can meet you all again and talk. Change of education level has bring me away from some. Some are just really close friends i want to have by my side now. Just one....is the one i want to be with and love. To care and treasure.

List of who and why.

OPY and Daitong(Daughter and grand-daughter)- My Pillar of strength during the tought O level times. Without them i would not make an effort to go to school, i may even drop out. Thanks to you i am in poly now. Really miss both of you.

Zheng Hao - Hahas, awesome childhood friend. Better then me many things be it social or brains. Your priceless attitude kept me greatly occupied. Really appreciated everything you have done. See you soon.

Nick, Robin, Ccj, HS, Tim, Zheng Yi, George(Best bros ever)- George come back to us, dont be quiet anymore. Guys i really hope we can go out more frequent, the bond i feel is not as strong. Mabye it may be just me. I still remember steamboat at bugis. And the long bus trip home. That i have to say is one of the best days of my life. Really thank you. Lets go there really soon.

4E5 Eugene, Jeremy, Hamdy & Khairul - I know im really an asshole during my secondary school days. But thank you for being with me be it you mean it or not.

Wesley, Velda - Wesley, i remember you as a really cheerful boy ince day one od secondary school. Sporting and how i bring my blades to school and we skated along the school corridoor. Even the priceless add u had with the signboard of Yeo's. Velda, i where are you already....Meet up soon. =)

TPRawks GL, WeiBin, Rome, Siti, Cherry and Rome - 3 days is already enough to really miss you guys so much. I know its impossible to hang out as a full group already but still....i had alot fun.

People of DOC - Especially Hooza. The energy and bond, you guys are awesome.

Liwei- Childhood friends! once a bro always a bro. We are busy with our lives right?

Rachel and gang. Hahas im over aged for you clique. But hahas see you all soon.

Xero and Zuri - Ones to give me love advices. learn alot of good(and bad) stuff from you guys. but still some of the greatest bros i have as well.

Lastly...Grace: Nothing to hide. I'm not gona hide and play games. Just....I Love you. I'll wait for that day.

Those not mentioned, its not coz i dun miss you. I miss everyone, just i cannot recall for the moment. Trust me i miss everyone.

TPSkate on ice.

Today is a great day! Went to Ice skating with many other TPSkate fellas.

Day started off with Nicholas, Robin and I. We met below my block for some skating session. Both Nick and Robin then competed in slides which ended in a draw, robin won first round while nick won the second.

Got home for a quick shower before making my way down to Pasir Ris CC for blood donation drive. Nothing interesting happened there just normal donation.

MRT-ed down to stadium station where Kallang Leisure Mall is located at and met them at the arcade. Marcus was playing combat warfare with a spoilt gun where cross-hair was doing nothing but jumping about. Then Gordon gave the King of Hammer machine a try, trying to beat the high score. Looked fun so i gave it a try. High score was 886 btw.... so i thought looks quite easy. Turns out i got 893 so i got a new high score! =D

Before we know it it is 4pm and we made our way into the rink. ICE SKATING IS AWESOME! We managed to do a few imba slides till about 6 when we got to leave in 20 mins time. I thought of a idea of scraping the ice and making them into cones. And before you know it Shen Loong and us fellow slalomers are finally able to slalom while its the sliders turn to watch us have our fun.

Ate at KFC before going for bowling. Slight improvement for me i got to say. Finally able to get 100 points. But far from good. Then went back to arcade to play random games before we take a short walk about the mall and made our way home.

What a awesoem day it is with awesome people!

I pray for you, though u aren't mine.

Almost 4 in the morning, designing of skate shirt finally done. Looks great thanks to Yu Heng. Anyways i know myself that i will not sleep. I spent an hour looking at the far ground below, allowing those pearls to just roll off my cheeks and crash some hundred meters below..just need a breather and still I'm thinking why im holding onto this feeling which i know would never happen. Please just let it go Leonard.

and later would have been the tryout for Team FSK. My mood is seriously distracted and frankly my confidence of getting in is low. I don't mind not getting sponsored, its just i feel that got to earn myself some respect. At least let people look up.

Come to think of it, reflecting from the speech and word that come out from my mouth have made me realised that my arrogance has dropped. That's a good sign coz i know i do get cocky without knowing and that sucks.

Mabye 'they' were right, I'm not fit to be part of her life...

keeping my fingers cross that the club loves the shirt design before toshi sends it for printing.

Okay i know this is SLOW but i just finished watching Avatar. The blue people one. Gotta agree tis a great movie even from a film student's POV. Only thing i dun like is the spammage of certain camera playing style. Overall its nice.....

Grumpy is still a greedy little fish. hahas u can see it swimming towards me all the time coz it knows im the source for its food. I guess i spoil it too much liao XP

Going jog with bro's at 19.45 later. Good way to keep healthy and also train my legs and stamina for skating. Slalom progression....erm slow i dare to say, so i need to work harder!

Norman is hopelessly addicted to MapleStory. Sigh! Thinking on how to make him focus on studies more. I only knew importance of studies and character after O level's.

Oh also....been planning on a TPSlalom video. Hope everythign would go fine for this project and that obvious improvement coz of a better cam and also more planning.

IDK if there are any readers out there, but please drop a msg at my tag board so i know u guys were here can? Oh ya and tips on how to jio a girl. I really really nid help in that please. Imma epic fail in that area.

friday 13 + 7month = combo!

great day man.....woke up early and went jogging, by rite should have went with nick, hs and many others. idk why tio pangseh, mabye coz i forever late ba. Reached home and DOTA before going back to sleep. at 4, i went to meet nick at school and makan at mensar before going to skate.

Shen Loog came for skating. WOOHOO, and today idk why cannot do alot high end moves. =(

Toshi asked me if i wanna join FSK...wun that be like Micro except less zai by 1 level only? The sponsors and trainings are tempting, but i am considering due to the fact that the stress to do well in competitions.

At dinner we played bang bang bang. some got it right away while marcus was still very stress on how it works. it was damm funny. We bump into Elvin who went ECP to skate instead.

Reached home and saw that one of my fishes died. wow record man 1 day only >.<. Then i went to play DOTA.~

ok im quickly posting this before 3.33am reaches(i admit i got phobia to that coz alot things happened at that time before(said to be that thing de hour). somemore friday the 13 and 7th month, so very fierce.


ok get started, i went to hs house at 11+ with robin and nick before making our way to take a bus 81 to kovan and then to harbout front mrt. Then we took 30 to my friend place where we got our hair cut. hs nick hair damm nice, personally i dun really like mine but mabye just nid get used. Robin tried something really special and it suits him as well.(go his profile and see)

Then Jerome passed me the fishes after waiting for 2 hours at vivo(so sorry) then we ate subway before we cabbed down and i pay for everything to Temasek Poly.

Skating was awesome and i have a few high end skills unlocked. I went past judo and TKD to on the lights for the court(and i was damm happy coz not every got skating at sku and i saw her. *heart racing*)

After that me and Tyler went cheers. Sadly my indian friend today not working there, hope see him there tml. And also Tyler was super funny, his bearing got alot sound then he got pek cek.

Made a mini combo with Tyler and before you know it, it is 9 already. So me, Roach (grace) and Daryl went to makan at KFC. While i learn more about our skate club history.

Had a bad game of dota coz im noob ahhas and using some stupid hero.

Okay, now go take care of fishes then slp le. BYE!

National Day

National day again. I did not watch the tv or go for my national day shuffle meetup. Went to skate with nick and LOLS nick radical wheels burns so fast! Then we still bring him go urban. GG man.

nothing much today just rot at home and do assignment.

Smile for real, for you.

5 year. could have been the best, but it is so far the most painful period for myself. The beginning of this 5 year period was great, couldn't stop smiling because we could still talk without borders. Still remembered how i introduced myself to you through sms. How i started liking you. The first time you said yes when i asked you out for a movie, which is also the first time i actually asked a girl out and obviously going out one to one with a girl. It meant a lot to me but i don't know it u did mean any to you. Watched DeathNote and even bumped into my friend which was very embarrassing. Not coz i wasn't proud of being out with you, but coz i felt it was like letting my friends think of the story beauty and the beast. You as the beauty and me as the beast. How we would spend hours talking on the phone till either of our parents got to get us off the phone or the batteries run out. Even when playing O2jam with one another, we would stick to the phone even when we can msg on the game or msn. How i would still stay in the room and play with you tho i lost almost every single game. I even promise to only ask you about being together after graduation because you told everyone u will not get a boyfriend until papers is over, you didnt want to be distracted. I respect that.

After i broke my leg, that was the time everything changed. Had to leave wushu and badminton because of that. And eventually joined drama with Brian who is till now a good friend who used to be an enemy at secondary 1. It has been a passion to act, not because you were there. I even asked Robin who was my back then best friend to come along, a week after i was in drama. That trusted friend eventually told people rumors of me joining because you were there, which proved to be true only after you left. I was ostracized by everyone in drama. But the pain was that u strayed away from me. Still ignorant back then, i didn't care when the others hated me. Didn't listen when they scolded me thinking that the rumor was true. I knew that was not true.

Our phone calls became shorter and soon stopped. You became paranoid i was doing things which made u very uncomfortable. I still am able to feel the shock of hearing Kenneth asking me if i was stalking you as you told him. The hurt i was feeling. Slowly i knew im a discomfort in your life and told myself i should stop doing anything to make things worse. Only defending you after classmates like Jack and Justin started throwing insults about you to provoke me.

Almost a year later after telling myself that, i was still awaiting. Thinking of ways i could be able to talk to you again or even be like how we used to be when i first met you. I could no longer smile not because my best friend back stabbed me, but coz i could no longer see u smile towards me as you would look away the moment u see me. Strayed away like ive done bad to you. And so i lost my laughter and smiles. Even if i did it was never a real smile. It was only to make others feel better as i knew they didn't do anything to hurt you. The first time i actually felt jealous about my classmate because i heard how close you 2 were. Why didn't you tell me about those? I didn't ask because i told myself to trust you.

On the same year, i spent $80 to buy a gift for you on valentines day. Still remembered i told myself i got to starve to get that money and a month later i was overjoyed that i manage to save enough just in time to buy it for you. But how crushed i was when i see the amount of roses and gifts you had during drama. Some were even bigger then my palm sized box. Making mine look like nothing at all. End of the session i wanted to go to you happy valentines day, but i could not do it like how i wish all my other friends and classmates. Outside the school gate u walked the opposite direction with the rest. Knew it was to avoid me but didnt complain.

During my birthday i could still remember that i rushed home right after my test run from F1. I completely ignored my parents who were scolding me for not making the right decisions of celebrating with my family and i told myself this IS the right decision. How i ran in the storm after getting off the bus at TampJC. After you told me you didnt want to meet me downstairs, i got haziqah to go to your place to pass the flowers to you as i find it awkward to stand outside your door with your family inside. I didnt want to put you in a difficult position. That 20 minutes as she went up to pass the flowers to you, i was praying to god the turnout will be good. Or at least change your mind and come down to talk to me. Sitting at those stair felt like hours until you told me to go home and that you cant. It felt so painful that after thanking and sending Haziqah back i broke down in the middle of the road in the rain and kneel there for an hour, only moving aside when a driver horned at me. I wish that the drived would just drive over me, knock me over and kill me coz i knew i failed terribly. Even during my competition i could'nt focused and launch at a timing which was the worse throughout my whole F1 record. I broke down in tears again at my seat and had to be brought out of the place by my team, thinking that i cried because of my failure which was not it.

The year where we have to sit for the most stressful paper. I could remember you sounding jealous after reading the post about me showing slight affection for Michelle, which was just a little side track. I thought that could help me to forget about you and to leave you at peace. However eventually the stress from the papers and you made me give in. I failed in everything. Couldnt really make friends and everyone started hating me saying i step emo. I could not study and failed my prelims. 54 points which is an F9 for every single subject. Justin even said in my face that i will not make it even into an ITE. I knew it really was the end for me. That eventually got me into the hospital after i attempted suicide because i could not take it anymore. I felt like a failure in everything. While u were just mugging hard for the papers.

Graduation came and i got 24 points, only good enough to get me into RP. I felt glad yet upset at the same time because i think that this would really help me in forgetting you, yet i can no longer be there. However TP eventually took me in after calling me over for an interview.

Since the day i stepped into TP i have been hoping to bump into you. Yes i did in the end, but at my friend magic shop. Strike a short conversation before you went to meet your friends. I visited your profile after Nick told me that you were close to a guy who kept commenting on your proflie. Even many people told me you were very close to KK, some even told me you got together with him. A few days later as i was with my cousin at Ehub, i saw u with Jia She. You didnt know we were only 2 seat behind you all and i left the show because i got too upset inside. I felt hopeless after this 2 incidents and was convinced that you would get with either of them.

Soon, i felt i have been bothering you too much and decided to remove you from facebook and deleting everything related to you. That was the worse decision i had made. My mind constantly think of you throughout the month and i knew this would not work. Why is it so hard for me to just be with you.

Ive waited since secondary till we graduated, and even till long after that. i guess its just fate. God please just give me a chance, as i am sincere about her. I now pray all the time to you father. The smile i see when she told me she felt happy seeing that i pray before my meal. Let me make her happy again and again. Never let it end.

Shall blog about yesterday...coz i was too tired to blog about it last night.

So i woke up at 8 in the morning despite being very tired to meet Robin and Nick. On the spot i asked them if they wanted to go ECP with me and an hour later we were eating at annitas cafe at pasir ris mrt before proceeding to take bus 15 to ECP. Bough new wheels at Hyper(FINALLY) but was very pek cek coz the new wheels havent seasoned so i cant do anything even the basic fish. Felt very unbalanced but i think need to adapt to it only.

An hour or 2 later TPSkate and Charmaine and friend came. I spent my time training at the ring for almost the whole day only going to inline culture and back a few times to get my wheels seasoned. about evening, i didnt really feel like training coz there were too many people using my cones but also feel bad to just remove it(like selfish ma) then i went to teach Charmaine friend how to ride a bike.

Came back to keep my cones then i saw 2 like GG case one, firsh thing was wa lau so jia lat arh how explain to my mother sia, then also if the fella okay. Asked about if the rest of micro know where terence is and they told me at the shop. Co zi know he got super lot of cones de, so i wanted jsut take 2 from him. Turns out Shirley replaced my 2 cones.(feel so damm pai seh sia)

Went to parkway parade and ate dinner with the rest and 15 all the way home. SHAG

Today went to Century Square watched The Last Airbender with my classmates. We sat at different seats but thats not the point. Show was awesome but throughout the movie i kept thinking that the one sitting next to me is her. Somehow she still existed in me all this while i said i forgot about her.

Back to topic, so after the movie i found this wallet on the floor. But could not find the owner, so i kept it to myself and told the movie side that is the boy is looking for it to please contact me. Lucky his IC got address so i think got time ill go over to return it.

Again i was supposed to go dance with Micro for YOG opening but spot change again and i didnt know. how? nvm go sku urban lorh!

Took about 2 hours plus. but it was fun and rewarding. and tiring as well. then we ate macs. Shen Loong came and i was like @#%$%&^* surprised. damm happy to see him! Shifu! Char...if u reading this...this fella is your shifu de shifu! 0.o

At the bus-stop, did some little magic tricks for Jess, Kienan and Richard while waitign for bus to pass.(just to make time pass faster) and on the bus i was tired and mind starts playing tricks on me. Almost a month since i talked to her and i miss her alot. I deleted you not coz i hate you or what. The fact is im keeping myself away from your life coz i think i should not bother your life and that chances for me is Z.E.R.O. and i thought not talking to you would work in ending this 5 year crush. I dont know if its right or wrong and Nicholas told me about that post, which i felt was u being mad at me. Don't blame me, i just dun wanna hurt myself anymore. I really can't move on. Guess im destined to stay single for life.

Went to school at 3. and watched a movie during class. Movie was creepy yet awesome(forgot wad was it again) and finally the last assignment 3. Alfie is damm nice to actually give us a full week to do that assignment.

Went to Tamp Mall to eat Long john silver before Zul went to play Tekken(failed at last stage) while i went to magic shop and bout a split spades. then went back.

Stayed downstairs to skate awhile before going home. and im already soooo tired. body is damm unhealthy i think

ok short day. wake up do project, then went out at 5. Skated to White Sands shopping to meet 2 of my magic students. taught them for 2 hours before going to TP and skate. JJ, Tyler, Richard, Jess, Clarence, Ning Xin.

All left for movie except Tyler and Richard then we went to makan. then 15 home. changed to 359 and drop a stop early to feed Tinkle. She so adorable....

Sleepy!

I slept early last night. However still woke up super late. Guess need more effort to areadjust my body clock back. Anyway later got skating! cant wait man. im always so excited on tues and fri coz can skate with TPSkate. not that i dun skate on other days but coz here is where i grow.

Anyway im playing Bejeweled and doing project now hahas. Got loads of plans which i HOPE will work. Talked to Jerome for a damm long time till i had to go for skate. Cab down and da pao food. Makan and skate!

Skating was as per normal except everyone started doing martial arts moves and i also got hyped up. hahas. Went to makan and go home. Pretty much a usualy good day i guess.

I like sku...when lecturer is good.

waaaa.....sooo long never go sku liao. finally sitting outside LT25 anticipating anxiously for lecxture to start.(this is updated through Donovan's laptop. Lets see hwo the rest of the day would go. bahahahas.


As usual...inside felt like its snowing. Brrrrr so cold, and me and Russell were actually playing Bejeweled. LOL, and we got a new project to do. Then we went to 201 to eat. I got mee Goreng but not nice at all de. TOO SPICY.

Went to TM and thought...EH? MAGIC STORE DISAPPEAR LIAO? but it shifted to arcade there, talked to my friend till Nick sms me to ask me out for skating. Even help my friend promote decks so more people will buy. Before i left 2 boys approached me asking me for lessons in magic. well seeing them as secondary student i charged them half price which is 10. In the middle of conversation with them i saw Rachel walk pass, but she just look away.. -.- actually idk wad i do wrong la, macham kena dao all of a sudden. well guess she dun wan me to talk to her ba. So i dun really wanna bother her either.

Bought cat food and was searching for the cat downstairs...nowhere to be seen. Then i saw 2 boys which dressed in a familiar fashion of Traceurs(Read older post to find out. REALLY old ones, or google the meaning) and guess those were the boys Joshua telling me about so i asked them if that Parkour and they replied yes, exchanged tips with them and also gave their number to my brother so they can train with my little brother.

Went back and changed and skated to Ehub, and back to my house downstairs to train. Somehow i still find i don't have my flow. need more training i guess. Anyway super shag now so i shall rest. Doodles!

Soo sleepy

this morening was soo awesome to sleep, until parents woke me up coz i slept till 2. cant blame them its by bad habit and also too shuang already.

See that its raining, i thought it would not be wise to go ecp skate. however after asking leonard lim how was the weather condition there, he said breezy but never rain. Jerome also told me got other TP skaters at ECP.

Chiong down to ECP and saw the 'breeze' Leonard Lim told me about. -.-.....everywhere is wet...

Urban with Clarence Chiew, Jess, Ning Xin, Richard, Roach and Felix.(plus leonard who left halfway to accompany his other friend) Slalomed at skate ring for a little while too.

Ate Macs for dinner before taking a shuttle bus back to Hougang and tranferred 109 with Richard.