26nov08

sian...my shuffle still sucks! dammit man! no matter how long ive practiced i NEVER get anything right. anyways, today is suck a rainy day. practice spot sucks due to small little irritating bugs flying and climbing about you body. they are hard to chase away and theres too many of them. very tiring...tho i didnt do much other then wasting my time walking about ehub with HSR. very little practice. but to be frank, i hate to go out. coz everytime i see a couple happily holding hands ad enjoying each another, flash back hits this damm head of mine. regrets...foolishness...how immature i was...emo...suicidal thoughts... been a very long time since ive promised myself that i will forget about her. so why am i still talking to her? not in bad term but nice way, can say a little flirty. DAMM! im such an idiotic jackass! should just fall down some bottomless hole and fall forever...mabye im love sick? no wait im not, it just takes tiem to heal holes in heart. everytime i plant my ass somewhere...enjoying myself, i cant coz i always think of havig someone sitting next to me, laughing, smiling... damm...